I arrived from Lahad Datu yesterday with a sad heart. It seems like my fiancée is loosing her battle to cancer. She was admitted at Lahad Datu Hospital Friday night and the doctor is giving her 1 week the most to live. Her mother called me up Saturday morning telling me her condition.
Diagnose with salivary gland cancer back in June 2006, she undergo surgery to remove part of her face, went for chemo & radio therapy and finished in November 2006. It seems that everything is going to be okay and she is going to survive the battle. January 2007 not long after her therapy, she was diagnosed with brain cancer. The doctor said that her cancer cells are very aggressive and have spread to other part of her body. The doctors are trying to get her into another chemo with a heavier dose. Because she’s a government staff and it will take some time to get the guarantee letter from her department, we tried other means of treatment. That means trying out every ‘Pawang’, ‘Bomoh’ and ‘Guru’ to cure her. Majority of them says that she was cured. One of them removed bits of glass and a piece of metal above her head, in front of my eyes. I don’t know if its true or not but the ‘Guru’ claim that he manage to remove the curse and part of her brain cancer but couldn’t remove cancer cells which have infected her eyes, fearing that removing it would make her blind or crippling her. They can only give her medicine to try making the cancer cell smaller.
Wednesday, 28th February 2007 was the last time I manage to message her. The next Thursday she’s not able to reply my message, her mother convey me her message. Friday…
I went to Lahad Datu Saturday at 3pm by land together with my brother and his girlfriend, reached there about 9pm. We were driving fast fearing that I could not see her. We went straight to the hospital. A few family members have already arrived, with red watery eyes. You have to look at the photo to know why. Her parents are not giving up and so does I. They are using every inch of time and opportunity to get anyone or anything to the hospital and try to save her.
Did I cry? Yes I did, on my bed in the hotel, while taking my shower, but not in front of her family. When you have found an almost perfect women, been together almost 4 years now, and have been engage, it’s hard not to cry. I pray that she will again survive this battle.